I HATED BEING STUCK AND FEELING CREATIVELY DRAINED

For several months, I had been searching for a job. The most common response I received was: “I’m sorry you’re overqualified” or “I’m sorry we have decided to pursue someone with a little more experience.” There was never anything in between. By this time, I was desperate.

I began freelancing. I was hired to work as a Receptionist, Administrative Assistant, File Clerk, and later a Coordinator. I mainly worked in the Education, Insurance, and Entertainment Industry i.e., Fashion, Music, and Film. I worked all throughout Hollywood; the “Boulevard of Broken Dreams.” Sometimes when you want something so bad you are willing to accept the “unacceptable.”

The perk of working as a File Clerk was: I did not have to speak to anyone. It was perfect for the days that I was feeling “anti-social.” For the days that I wanted to sulk in my feelings and listen to Adele; it only made me feel even worse. I remember silently crying asking myself how did I get here? I should be doing what I love! Not here stuck in an office or better yet a 2×5 cubicle facing a white wall. I felt every ounce of creativity draining from my existence. I knew that there was more to life than this. There had to be!

“You know we are looking to bring someone on-board as a Full-Time Administrative Assistant,” my boss mentioned at one of my many contract positions. “Wow—that would be awesome,” I responded. Thought I knew very well that deep in my gut I didn’t want to do the “9 to 5” thing much longer.

School was starting in the Fall. My roommate decided she wanted to move back home a few weeks prior which meant I had to search for a new roommate. It was bittersweet. Everything seemed to be so chaotic. I had no luck with finding a roommate. So, I guess you can say that I was a bit frantic and on edge for a few weeks.

While freelancing, I was offered an opportunity that I had been waiting for these past months! A job in the field that I graduated in! Did I mention the compensation was far more than I could have imagined? I had been hoping to see those numbers; however, I knew that I had a lot of thinking to do.

Do I accept a job that I HATED? Did I mention how much I hated the company culture and work environment? Everything about that job wreaked havoc.   

I just didn’t know where and what I was supposed to do. I knew that I wanted to go back to school full-time. I had been praying for some time asking for a second chance! For about a year and a half, I worked full-time and took a few night classes. It was very tough!

What made it worst is the fact that I continued to get job offers. The monetary rewards beamed like flashing lights. I was distracted by what I could do with the money! It made me question my initial plans. You know the second chance that I had been praying for!

Sometimes we are put situations where we are forced to make a decision. We have to factor in our long-term goals and not the instant gratification. I wanted to go back to school to fully focus on my career goals. I already spent time working full-time and going to school; it was time for me to make a change especially if I wanted to grow. I didn’t want to spend another two years wishing.

Should I stay comfortable? Or, should I go out into the unknown. The choice is yours! However, just remember your decision will affect you for the rest of your life.

I decided to quit my 9 to 5.      

Do you ever feel that when you began working your creativity was killed or stifled? What did you do to get out of this temporary slump?  If you would like to receive updates about the journeys of women across the world SUBSCRIBE HERE!

Sasha Frank

I am Sasha Frank, and I am on a mission to experience all that God has for me. What started out as a dream, is now a vision, and is slowly manifesting into a reality.

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